Wednesday, August 26, 2009

- confusion -

my life is whirling like a typhoon..thoughts just struck into my mind one after another..i'm easily agitated..easily frustrated..easily bent into emotions in just split seconds..one moment i might be thinking of my grandmother..the another moment i might be thinking of going back to study..the very next moment i might be thinking of money and so on and so forth..sometimes i felt pressured..felt strangled..felt out of breath due to everything or anything that can directly or indirectly occur to me..i even wonder do i know myself anymore..the person whom understands me the most is not by my side..but whenever i think of her..the very night she'd appear in my dream..that is where i felt comforting..felt relaxed..felt that nothing could pierce through this little moment of happiness that i had..but when it wears off and when i step into reality..the whole situation just changed..all i ever wanted is life to go the way i want it to be..and not the total opposite..

now i am thinking of :
1. going back to study
2. buying a piano
3. taking up piano lessons
4. make lots of money
5. makeover myself
6. getting a new laptop
7. buying a new handphone

beex never ending fairytales- 6:45 AM

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