Thursday, June 11, 2009

- o.o -

well its been some time since i blogged..i din know what to write about..lol

since then i've been rather forgetful..i dreamt most of the time but when i wake up i couldn't rmb what i was dreaming about..probably sometimes due to the slightest noise around..since i stay on the 2nd floor..hahas..

i've been having strange things occurring..be it sounds..sights from side of the eyes..either nice or wierd smells at a particular spot during some of the times..if i were last time..i would have been scared like hell..but now..my only thought is..probably grandma is around..becuz i've been thinking of her everyday..she's the one whom made me courageous, made me realised i've a childlike thinking for the past years, made me realise i have to pursue my dream be it whatever adversity i face, made me understand the importance of kinship, made me realise i have to cherish everything i have now before i made another regretful decision, made me into a strong person, made me become alot of things that i possible did not known of until that day, the day she left me all by myself..

now my life seem black and white..whenever i tried to excercise..i seem to pant more..whenever my parents have cooked when they come home..i seem to be eating alone..whenever i tried to do house chores..i seem to rmb how grandma used to clean her house and want to become like her..whenever i needed something..i seem to not get it..whenever i needed someone to talk to..i seem to not able to find anyone..whenever i have a goal to achieve..i seem to stand firmer to what i'm going for..whenever i close my eyes..i seem to be dripping water from my eyes..whenever what i'm going to continue saying..i seem to have more complaints in life and am afraid one day i may erupt like a volcano, just like the mastermind in M.I.T.

beex never ending fairytales- 4:10 AM

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