Sunday, June 28, 2009

- happy! -

hahas..today was happy..although i slept at 7am cuz my grandfather came over to our house to stayover as he have to head back to msia to go back to the doctors and take his medicine..i saw that he couldn't really sleep well and woke up every few hours to take a leek..he told me that its like his bladder is very full and make his stomach very bloated and uncomfortable..so has to often head to the restroom..and till 5am..he couldn't sleep le..thou i was sleepy..but i had to stay awake in case he has any specific needs..and i was right...he needed help..he had white coffee and a cake and some kaya butter bread as a small breakfast while watching the tv..and waited till 6+am..whereas he changed and prepared to be ready to leave for home as my dad is sending him over..i was thinking at that point of time..if only i didn't had the barrier..i would have been a better grand daughter and treated him like how i treated my grandmothers..probably its a barrier of mine that i couldn't really get well with guys older than me..i don't really know y..but to ppl of the same gender..i'm more or less more comfortable..when i look at how age had catch up to him..i remembered how last time he was so proactive into taking care of his fruit plantations and looking healthy as ever..but ever since my grandmother left which was his wife..while in my secondary school days..he's overall changed drastically..probably because without your partner beside you..somethings feel amiss i guess..i believe its many many times more than how i missed my other grandmother..i saw how many has his white hair grew..how many more wrinkles are drawn on his face..i felt unfilial..and also due to money barriers i couldn't really get close to him..and have a chance to become a filial grand daughter..as i'm the eldest among his grand children..i really prayed sincerely in my heart to let him live for at least 10 more years..

after this i woke up at 3pm..prepared and went out around 4 to my 2nd uncle's place..i bought chee chiong fun and chui kui for grandmother and placed a few pieces for her on her altar..my sis and male cousin were at home..they were using the cpu..while i was walking around the house..and when i gotten near the window at my grandmothers room..i had this sudden sadness gushing upon me..tears suddenly rolled up in my eyes and i immed went to the bathroom to let it drip finish..meanwhile i heard alot of noises outside and guessed it was my uncle who just came back home from some grocery shopping..i tried to stop my tears and kept washing my eyes to make it look normal before i left the bathroom..and immed tried to divert my attention by talking and teasing my sis and my cousin..it also worked..it helped me covered so well..after that played a few games..and finally it was 7-8pm..sis previously called mum to pick us up..and eventually she agreed..and she brought us whom consist of..me..my sis..my uncle and my cousin out to eat mcdonalds at teck whye there..after that we left for home..and i forgot to say..while buying the chee chiong fun and chui kui..before that i routed to mcdonalds and gotten my free cup of double chocolate frape..as there was this birthday treat promotion going on of which is the devotee card..hahs..lucky me..and last but not least..my sister and another younger cousin huihui went to buy a gift for me..hahas..so touching..the present was a mini water dispenser..very cute..so now whenever i need to drink water i would just have to travel 3-4 footsteps away..lol..really grateful to them..thanks =)

oh and while these few nights which i wasn't able to fall aslp..i started watching Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang and also Wo Ai Hei Se Hui..hahas this two shows are just so funny..some episodes really can make you laugh..and also most of them look for mature even though their age might be younger!! people age 15-16 can look so so mature just like ppl in america..so you can just imagine how mature looking are they..needless to say..but if compared to singaporeans teens..oh my gosh..i really don't know what to say..is it the thinking? or the food we eat? that lets us look so child like..hmmm..and i was wondering..what if one day i could be like them? be on reality shows and showing out my talent to other ppl..although i duno what talent i have oops lol..and enjoying all the fun times..aint that cool? lols..

beex never ending fairytales- 1:58 PM

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