Friday, May 22, 2009

- missing -

its already past 3-4 days since i last post..after the last post i did dream again..i dreamt of my close ones..all in the family tree and tgt with my grandma's alter..its always the same ppl and the alter..although the environment may vary from time to time or dream to dream..but i didn't dream of my grandma..i duno y..instead one of my dreams i dreamt of my family with my paternal grandma..oh my..cuz my paternal grandma has left us years ago..when in my secondary sch days if i'm not wrong..that time i didn't really realise how impt it is to cherish the other old folks..i only realise that when my maternal grandma just passed on april..i really cannot bear to see my other loved ones leave me just like that..its too painful..i couldn't let go..

today..my mum and 3 of us went to fetch grandma's old closet..now its in my room already..tml i'll be cleaning it and waiting for mum to fix up the spare parts and i'll be unpacking my memory boxes into this very special closet..becuz since staying in 129..i have been packing all my precious stuff into these 2 boxes..till 34 i din really take them out..and now i've moved to 31..and i've found the perfect timing and place to unpack my memory boxes..i'm happy and sad at the same time..happy is becuz since young this closet has been with grandma till she left..and now its passed on to me indirectly..the sad is..the owner of this closet have left and whom is the most impt person in my life..whenever i see it..i'd feel like crying and smiling at the same time..at this point of time..i still cannot accept the fact that my grandma has left..the feeling of me accompanying her is just a feeling that just happened ystd..so crisp and clear with smiles and laughters that i wouldn't exchange for anything in this world..

i really miss her..i really really do..

beex never ending fairytales- 10:59 AM

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