Saturday, April 11, 2009

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well recently things to have been goin quite ok i guess..moving house at de 1st week of may..although just a few blocks away..but there can be quite alot of things in my house lol..parents biz have been goin well..hope it excels better..well..ystd my mum asked me to find on the internet about the procedures when a person dies at home..my mum related this case to my grandma cuz my uncle who is staying with her says her leg is rotting due to her serious diabetic condition and even if the doctor says it needs amputation she might not have many days to live..on the spot my tears were like flowing out but i kept it from doin so cuz my mum was beside me when she told me so..until she left i couldn't stop..i felt very very upset and kept praying for my ancestors to protect my grandma and prolong her life so as she would get a chance to see my own children when i have one..its very heartening and sensitive when i hear any news about my grandma..because no one in the family nor relatives know how much i love my grandma..she's the person whom i look up to..she see me grow up..during childhood days i might have been very naughty always causing trouble for her..anyhow run anyhow play..when i'm hungry she'll cook for me..when i needed to go school she'll send me to the bus stop where i waited for sch bus..den picking me up from school..always nagging at me for not listening or not doin this or that..now i wished she could nag at me or even scold me..u might be wondering y i would miss that right? becuz now she's very very ill..and dun really rmb alot of things..especially ill..i stilled rmb just 3 years back where she could still walk and talk and still is very bubbly..i would often drop by her place and chit chat with her..she's the only person in the world who understands my thoughts and i understand hers..when she was admitted to the hospital due to her sugar lvl..i would almost everyday visit the hospital and accompany her..be it eating or just chit chatting very happily..but now..it pains me in the heart..she couldn't rmb me..everytime i ask her about who am i..she'd often give the confusing look..always at that moment my tears dripped..because no matter how i wish or do..she dun rmb me anymore..sometimes i even hoped she was playing with me and feigning all of this..but the chances was so little..everyday b4 i slp..i prayed for her to be protected and long lived to see my even my 1st child when i have..most of the time during family gatherings i'd always sneak to her room and just sit beside her bed and accompany her to watch tv..sometimes i duno y ar there family gatherings..i thought it is to gather everyone and bond tgt with de family? y i hav the feeling that my grandma is always outcasted..she'd always be greeted when my relatives arrived and she sits wif the children while eating? sometimes i really dun understand..i duno whether other than my uncle..am i the only grandchildren who loves and dotes her the most? there hav always been a wish of mine..which is too take alot of photos with my grandma and put them all over..be it my phone's display pic..or framing it and putting it by my sidetable or keep a photo book..i hope to get it done soon..and recently we ar gathered during my grandma's place cuz its my uncle's bday..while we kids ar eating tgt with my grandma..her left knee softly pushed me leg and i immed look at her and she was smiling at me..at that moment of time i could felt that she remembered me and i was very happy thou i din show out as my other cousins were around..i'm someone who seems very strong in appearance..but whenever i face my grandma..my emotional side seems to overtake me..to becoming a cry baby..cuz all her memories that consists of me and her will overwhelm my entire self..i dun wan her to be forgotten in anyway..and there is a movie i would like to recommend to all..the title is The Way Home..its a korean movie..the storyline is..This is the story of a spoiled 7-year-old city boy, Sang-woo (Yoo Seung-ho), and his mute grandmother (Kim Eul-boon), who has spent her whole life in a small rural village. Forced to stay with his grandmother while his mother (Dong-Hyo-hee) looks for work, Sang-woo learns about the ups and downs of life.
Being a city brat, he's used to the benefits and luxuries of Seoul. When he realizes that there are no batteries for his toys, only rocks to play with, he torments his grandmother - whining and demanding things she can't provide, but she never reprimands him for his behavior. Instead she gives him unconditional love and he gradually learns how to appreciate the simple pleasures of living.
It is really a very very nice, sad and touching movie..i cried very hard at the ending..i just wana post a question to ppl whom are reading this..Ask Yourself Truthfully..How Much Do You Love Your Grandmother? How Much Care And Concern Have She Received From You Up Till This Very Moment Of Time?

beex never ending fairytales- 10:24 AM

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