Tuesday, February 10, 2009

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recently having some ups and downs in life..past few days i've a fren in msn whom i haven chatted for like years i tink..suddenly we talked and had recalled many memories..she told me something which i find it quite hard to forget..which is.."i feel that u ar lonely, its either u hav no frens to really trust and confide in, or u just like to keep everything to yourself, am i quite right?" its like wad she's said is really true..she seems to know what i am thinking..sometimes i am really lonely mentally..physicalling i might seem to hav many frens..but i still just hav a firewall around me so as to not let anyone enter thru and read my mind..last time i use to hav 2 very gd frens who stay very very near me..when i was staying at smb blk 306 during my pri to sec sch life..although both of them their ages is elder den me by 1 yrs..the days used to play in playground,play badminton,block catching,ah lay ah lay bomb(duno hwo to spell) lols,riding bike,tonning out and many many fun and exciting things..i still rmb during one the years i tink when i was in sec 2 or 3..during the june holidays..which is my first few times sleeping over at frens house..i slept in 1 of my frens house for like almost half of the month of june..cuz we're particularly just keep going out and stayed out late almost everyday of that month hahas!..thinking of it seems very fun already..i really missed the times..sometimes even had this thinking that hope everything stays that way and we would nv grow up..lols..but now alot of things had changed..including myself..probably becuz i couldn't really find someone when in the middle of the night need someone to talk to..compared to last time everywhere is frens as most of them stay near me..lols duno y i blog this also..but nvm hahas..life still has to go on rights..hahas

beex never ending fairytales- 10:13 AM

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