Wednesday, December 10, 2008

- deathtifying -

well recently things hadn't really changed much..its like de more u hope of gd things to happen but instead all e bad things befall on u..de feeling is not good..its hard to multi-task cuz of emotions getting affected and many more..today was so called worse day of my life? i quarreled with my bro over trivial matters and in e end i landed up having breathing problems and feeling very outraged..de feeling is very worse..its like after scolding..i just felt my hands and head starting to feel very numb and couldn't stop myself from crying..i am very conscious at that moment but i couldn't change the fact that i couldn't tell my body wad to do..in e end i was like semi-conscious and i couldn't move at all..it feels like you're dying..to another extent its like exerting out all my tolerance and anger all these while since last year..it feels good on one hand but very painful on de other hand which is my upper part of the body..after everything i kept thinking y was i like that..it seems like i've gone crazy or stroke? well im scared thou..is everything happening now at this point of my life happens for a reason? cuz i couldn't take all this pressure anymore..and it feels like you could just end everything here..sometimes i even wish i wasn't born so i could save de troubles that i've created all these while..whatever it is i'm just very confused and feels lost..

beex never ending fairytales- 9:23 AM

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