Saturday, October 04, 2008

- beloved grandma ^_^ -

watched money not enough 2 online today as was sick and couldn't do anything..it was indeed a very heart breaking and sad movie..it really tell-tale of how singaporeans lives are like..throughout the whole movie i felt sad most was the grandma..i cried so hard like as if i were her..i couldn't imagine if in my old age my children were to do that to me..i would be so so sad to live all these while..she's a very strong lady that sacrifice so much for her family..taking her hard earned savings and giving his sons when they needed help..and she din complain at all..although she was a lil senile..u can sense that she still hav ears to listen and tears to drop when she's all alone during e period of time that she has to consecutively move to each sons house every 2-3 days..when lastly she was being sent to e old folks home by her eldest son..she thought she was goin to a place being said by e eldest son that ther hav many frens to talk to and its near the sea and greeneries..once she stepped into this place which is at a gate entrance..she saw many helpless old ppl..she immed turned around to look for his son..but to just see him running away from the place..after that she collapse and was in critical condition while in de icu..last but not least..when e 2nd son de daughter got into an accident and needed blood transfusion becuz it was a rare blood 0- and at e same time e grandma was also 0- had internal bleedings..and it was e exact timing that the hospital only hav 2 bags of 0- blood and was about to transfuse into e grandma but the wife of 2nd son was making a din snatching away the blood in order to save her daughter stella..during e process e grandma heard it and made a painful decision which is to pull out de i-think-is-the-breathing-pipe out of her mouth and died almost instantly..it was very very sad..i really give high ratings for this as it relates to almost everyone living in singapore currently..we'll definitely experience this either sooner or later..
eventually it relates back into my life too..cuz i just visited my grandmother ystd and i dun really know whether she rmbs me or not..cuz 1 moment she doesn't but the next moment she does..she was someone very impt in my life and we both dote on each other alot since the time when im young..i admit that during my times when i was a kid i didn't cherish her well..but everytime from sec sch onwards whenever i hav time i'll visit her and theres many things to talk to her about..she's like my counsellor and everytime when im sad i would tell her and she would give me solutions and she makes me laugh easily..during the times b4 poly..she even offered to pay for my education fees but of cuz i rejected cuz it just made me feel so guilty even though my family at that point of time couldn't choke up the sum..everytime talking about her just make my eyes drip tears very easily as i really really really missed the times with her when she wasn't senile..cuz she was the only person so far in the whole world that i really trust and love the most that i can unconditionally tell her truthfully and honestly all my problems and almost everything under the sun..but now she's half senile and all of a sudden she seems to hav grown skinnier and frail and weak and like a kid..sometimes i would still tell her all my probs but no matter whether she understands anot is just another issue..maybe she can maybe she can't i dun really know..sometimes i feel she can sense me..but prob nv show out..without her in my life would be like not having a soul in my body..now whenever i cry in front of her she cant even see it..prob due to her poor eyesight called lao hua yan in chinese..she'll only look at me den look away..but no matter what i'll still love her the way like when she love me since i was a baby..last last lastly..all grandparents out there..u all ar very strong and nobel..i salute u all from my heart =]

beex never ending fairytales- 6:32 AM

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