Monday, April 21, 2008

- lost -

today had some probs at home..reached office bout 11.20pm and saw taurus grouping up at 1st floor showroom..i din dare to go in so i stayed outside till 11.35pm den decide to wait for bus 24 and go off..in e end corinne and yati saw me so corinne went to ask ms jasmine out..so ms jasmine came out..i felt better and more calm when she turns up..i passed her my present for her becuz its her bday on 21/4..lols..its still not too late to pass her her prezzie cuz haben 12 yet hahas..den had a short chat with her b4 e bus arrive..hmm i feel very lost..last time i not lidat de..but duno y i become lidat..is it too long no go office le? hais duno le..den just now also saw derrick..hais..i find that i'm not showing him that im a gd upline..de period of time while i was moving house..he helped me with rec,bt and stuff..and come to tink of it..i din help him much after all..i feel so guilty..whenever i sms or ask him how was he..he gav very cold replies..like he was avoiding..i feel down..but i was e cause of it..so i must build up this trust again..he's also my motivation y i stay on in ve..becuz last time when my ppl keep coming and go..i kept believing and wishing that i will hav a solid downline that can stay during e nites,hav fun with us,go thru our ups and downs tgt with e team,and will be a solid ldr in e future..now my 1st keyman really appeared and i need to cherish,appreciate and help him all e way..i will be actively back de..i just need to find back e pathway that i walked b4 and follow e directions and not get lost again..i will believe wad i believe to be..and no1's gonna stop me..

beex never ending fairytales- 1:04 PM

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