Tuesday, June 07, 2005

- haix -

today morning started a fine day..but nth to do so boring..so played some online games and chit chatted..dench from evening till now kept watching tebee..cuz got nice shows..haix..i beri xin fan..i felt left out in eberyting..i tried to please ppl to wad they expected..but i was juz like a toy..being used around or something..i duno wad to think..haix..my competitiveness ish beri strong..once i lose in something..i will feel so mad..sometimes trying to counter back but still losing..im a loser..i can't win anything..eben if i tried my best..ther's still no hope that i could win..im just a sore loser..easily emotionally affected..haix..fwenx always angry about me..i noe and felt that..i just tried to not make them mad again..but in e end i still did..i just can't be perfect..in wadeva i do..i always chose de wrong time to do it or wib e wrong attitude..i tried changing my attitude but to no avail..i tried changing my whole self but i just got worse den it seems..haix..ming zhong zhu ding de bahx..let fate decide my pathways of life..haix..wish upon a star..dreams will take you beri far..hope dreams can take me to a faraway place..haixxxxxxxxxx...beri xin fan ah..sighs..now sick le..maybe becuz of heatiness bahx..haix..mentally n physical breakdown..if i hab a time traveller den gd..cuz i wan to travel back to time..and cherish the past..becuz i noe its too late..even amendments can't help le ba..i find that im useless..everything also duno how to handle..i only noe how to ben shou ben jiao de..zhi hui yue bang yue mang..haixx..i stop blogging le..otherwise it will be neber ending..haix..nitex
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beex never ending fairytales- 10:50 PM

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